My journey with God
When I was still a kid, I was already exposed to God and Christianity. I would regularly go to Sunday school and hear tales from the Bible. I was taught that Jesus died for our sins and saved us all from going to hell. But I was still a kid back then and didn’t much understand how important that was.
As I move on to my elementary years, I slowly lost my connection with God; I didn’t go to Sunday school or service much anymore and would usually. In school, I was a hot head; I would easily loose my temper because of my classmates teasing me. I was also influence by some of classmates to do sinful acts like watching porn. I didn’t care if it was bad. But during my retreat in the 6th grade, God pushed me. He reminded me how Christ died for my sins and that I may have a chance to get into His kingdom in heaven. This was the first time I accepted Christ as my personal savior. Yet my burning passion for Him was lost again.
As I entered high school, my mother encouraged me to join our church’s youth group. At first I was hesitant but soon gave in. I met new people and went to different places with them. But somehow I still felt something missing. I started losing interest in going because of the wrong reasons and started going back to my old ways. I felt that my relationship with God was ok and contented. Passing high school and fun became the only priority for me. My life became somehow hollow. When 4th year came, we had a new classmate. He invited us to go to Jzone’s Christmas party. So I went with some of my classmates. I was again pushed by God. It was somehow the same feelings I got when I first went to our church’s youth but there was something different. I was introduced to Dgroup and started sharing my life. It became a habit for me to go. I started to understand what was missing. But this was nothing compared to what God planned for me next.
I was now choosing my college. I was determined to go to La Salle or Ateneo. Soon I took the exams and got the results. I was shocked that I didn’t pass them both. I ended up in UAP. At first, I was feeling down that didn’t pass. But I guess God had a plan for me. My first year there was filled with so many experiences. I met new friends and learned new things. I enjoyed so much that once again, I was straying away from God. So God showed me that I needed Him so much.
During my summer, I was falling for a girl in school. We met during 1st semester and became really close friends in 2nd semester. But soon I found out she just started a relationship with someone else just recently. My heart became so bitter and sad. I stopped going to Jzone for a while. I asked God why He had to do this to me. I was so confused and hurt. But soon, God gave me an answer. I forgot again that I needed Him.
Now I’m in my 2nd year here in UAP. I’m now a part of Project S.C.H.O.O.L. UAP, shared with some classmates the Gospel and inviting others to come to Jzone. I’m still me, but..God has given me a whole new perspective. I see now that I can’t do this on my own and that I shouldn’t worry what will happen. I just have to do my part and believe in Him. I thank God that He let me go thru all of this and molded me into a better person and giving me friends that care.
